User talk:Hanging gardens of babylon
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i have a dream a dream that i could treat English as if it was my first language to contribute to en.wikipedia because i have read many of beautiful articles in en wiki and...god, it is so amazing and how much impression it gave to a vietnamese like me as watching people use it so smoothly, sophisticatedly and professionally. but i also acknowledge that could be an unapproachable goal to me forever, 'cause to keep disappointing and dishonoring myself seems likely something lasting endlessly and miserably. it is really a lingering sympathy to me for being unable to overcome this obstacle and i swear that i really cannot remember how much time i did keep shedding my tears lonely and quietly when suddenly waking up at midnight to realize how much deeply bad and ashamed i am after all of everything to which i have intensely sacrificed for. it looks like i have done something bad, really bad to myself and felt guilty for it. i do want to say "i am sorry" to myself, and to everyone those who have kept their positive feelings toward me. But by carrying out that kind of pain and sorrow could make them disappoint more even about themselves for having put the believes in a wrong way to a wrong person for such a long time, so that may be not good |